His Brothers and Sisters

I'm glad he didn't come today.  Friday the 13th wouldn't be a very good birthday for our baby boy.

Definitely telling Mikey's older brothers and sisters was one of the hardest parts of this.  We sat them down in our "blue room" and told them all about his heart and his lungs and how their little brother wouldn't be able to live.  Immediately they understood and all started crying too.  They climbed on my and Papi's laps and snuggled and asked questions, "why?", "what's a diaphragmatic hernia?", "where was Mikey going to go if he wasn't going to be here with us?".

"Can't Jesus fix it?" Was AJ's sweet response.  All I could tell him was that yes, Jesus could fix it and if that's what was supposed to happen he would fix it. But Mikey has another mission.  Being healthy was not supposed to be his miracle.  His miracle is being born to wonderful brothers and sisters who will understand that he loves them a lot even though he can't be here with them physically.  He will be watching and helping them.  And we need to do everything we can to make good choices so that we can live with him as a family forever.  His miracle was even more for us to give us the motivation we need to do what is right.  We just have to remember him and never forget his short but very precious life here on earth.

As soon as we were done talking to our children DJ went directly to the cupboard, pulled out a piece of paper and drew a picture of him and Mikey.  DJ expresses his feelings on paper a lot better than through spoken words.  Then all the kids followed his ideas drawing their own emotions on paper for Mikey.  He is loved and I hope they will never forget the miracle that he can do for us if we let him.